We are not special because we are lonely, tired, depressed, or empty. We are not special because we "want a relationship" or we are "working too hard". These are actually things that unify us with one another. Being lonely is not something only you experience. How you manage through these times...that is what makes you unique.
My sister who has been my inspiration and motivation in life made a comment tonight about how it's strange but she just really wants a relationship. Her reasoning being she is from and never leaving (any time soon) Jacksonville, and it is lonely. My response...You aren't the only one. Just because you live in your home town doesn't make you special or mean you are the only one wanting a relationship. And I can tell her this because our relationship is strong enough for me to be honest and not skirt around the tough answers.
My point is....find unity in your weaknesses. We all feel them. But don't justify one another. Hold each other accountable. Love, but require accountability and self discovery. Require each other to become better while still showing love, compassion, and understanding.
That last paragraph sounded like a great ending, conclusive and "warm and fuzzy". The problem? Easier said than done. We love and revel in pity. It gives us an excuse to not change. Likewise, if those we are close to are in that same state of pity, it gives us a reason to not only judge them but use it as justification for ourselves.
Maybe that is why God says, "come to me all ye who are weary and weak". Maybe He knew that we just couldn't give to those what is needed because we are in so much need ourselves. We use others as a buoy, similar to drowning victims. Instead of allowing others to save us, we drown them in the process. We say "well...at least I am not like 'so and so'" or "at least I didn't do that...". God does not. And I am so grateful for that.
haha dork. I'm going to write about you now lol jk. i love you. the point was, i felt bad saying that i really wanted a relationship. maybe like i don't deserve love. i hate being needy in that way, it embarrasses me. I thought i could be cool and single and travel the world. but I'm not cool and I'm not traveling the world (anymore). I'm poor so I'm just stuck here. but maybe thats the point. maybe wanting a relationship because you feel stuck is a terrible entrance, a terrible beginning. for real, i like being lonely---bc i can watch a bajillion hours of bachelor and other crap on Hulu. ok, that is real but i still don't care for being lonely. my man right now chewed through my computer's power cord. $80 later i now have a new one!
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